the most ex tix of my life!
fused
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
i am tired out.
honestly, it takes alot for me to loathe a class but one just did it. and i LOST IT. the trigger just came somewhat and what ensued was best not mentioned again. then the hd came in and restored more peace. i just created history during hist lesson. what a huge irony.
went to follow up with the hd and a short discussion. he's so understanding wch makes me feel so bad. things happen and i just had to vent to a few who offered constructive advice.
the aftermath today that i won instant (unwanted) attention. like how my voice could stunned the entire school. i shocked even myself and the worst thing was me having to descend to that level of stupidity. it was rather unwise and i regretted it.
students came up to me, some genuinely concern, others plain busybody. anyway, it is quite amusing what other tcrs made of that episode. NO ONE can guess it was me, the bubbly guy in the staff room with that energy and ideas.
i made a mistake and i need to learn from it. it's a learning curve again. and i need to forgive myself first before i can render others the same forgiveness.
ahh but the world can be so unforgiving. i really gotta control myself and temper my passions.
case closed.
honestly, it takes alot for me to loathe a class but one just did it. and i LOST IT. the trigger just came somewhat and what ensued was best not mentioned again. then the hd came in and restored more peace. i just created history during hist lesson. what a huge irony.
went to follow up with the hd and a short discussion. he's so understanding wch makes me feel so bad. things happen and i just had to vent to a few who offered constructive advice.
the aftermath today that i won instant (unwanted) attention. like how my voice could stunned the entire school. i shocked even myself and the worst thing was me having to descend to that level of stupidity. it was rather unwise and i regretted it.
students came up to me, some genuinely concern, others plain busybody. anyway, it is quite amusing what other tcrs made of that episode. NO ONE can guess it was me, the bubbly guy in the staff room with that energy and ideas.
i made a mistake and i need to learn from it. it's a learning curve again. and i need to forgive myself first before i can render others the same forgiveness.
ahh but the world can be so unforgiving. i really gotta control myself and temper my passions.
case closed.
bloody everyday
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
Well you turn when I talk
Run when I walk
Rise when I fall
Burn when I shiver
Smile when I frown
Go when I come around
You twist when I shout
In when i'm out
There when I'm here
Why do I bother?
Laugh when i'm down
Whine when I make a sound
***
THINGS HAPPEN.
Run when I walk
Rise when I fall
Burn when I shiver
Smile when I frown
Go when I come around
You twist when I shout
In when i'm out
There when I'm here
Why do I bother?
Laugh when i'm down
Whine when I make a sound
***
THINGS HAPPEN.
happy youth day
Monday, 6 July 2009
weekend went past too fast. RT really spoilt so much of my weekend. glad that come wed, i shall revive my 'happening' weekends again.
the week also went past in a blaze and im quite happy to be reacquainted with the teachers and students there. glad that despite the slight changes, it is still the same. and the most awesome part is the company i enjoyed everyday in the staff lounge. it's such a diverse mix of us, there are 2 interns, 2 on prac, 2 on ESE and me the sole relief ranger! i shld hav a proper table but he entire staff rm is so packed! but the staff culture here is so fantastic! we even played badminton after sch on friday!
people here actually smiled at each other and are genuinely nice!
for now i hav got 4 full classes. the fate of my stay is still uncertain but im numbed to it already. whatever i can do, i will just do it. i'm creative to the point of being over-experimental! it's not too good because it makes me behind the SOW (scheme of work)! and i have yet to actualise the energy i thought i would have. the point is i have to balance my enthusiasm and temper my passions. sometimes i get carried away or at times i might get too impatient to "prove myself".
the weekend sobered me a little - i need to take things easy!
so now that the first impressions have been made, i need to follow through my "style" consistently. i have the privilege to go "solo" so i shld nt squander precious time by not channeling my classes into learning something. yes, i want to make them learn something and pave the way ahead for them a little, even if it's short lived.
had a good Fri chill out session at ACC before being consumed by tuitions for the weekend. hardly rested at all.
and today meet up session was actually surprisingly good and somehow refreshing. i always thought i knew better but i became humbled and reproached myself for being an 'insufferable know-it all". the sharing session was also rather engaging and i could relate so much to it! haha!
the only thing that pissed me off was that they kept rescheduling my appt! i got damn FED UP!
other than that, i went back and really rested. skipped RT. behind time for lesson planning! so tmrw i gotta pay the price.
happy youth day. read in educational psychology that the mind is not fully developed till 25. so until then, im still entitled to my own youthful, juvenile and accident-proned days.
till again.
the week also went past in a blaze and im quite happy to be reacquainted with the teachers and students there. glad that despite the slight changes, it is still the same. and the most awesome part is the company i enjoyed everyday in the staff lounge. it's such a diverse mix of us, there are 2 interns, 2 on prac, 2 on ESE and me the sole relief ranger! i shld hav a proper table but he entire staff rm is so packed! but the staff culture here is so fantastic! we even played badminton after sch on friday!people here actually smiled at each other and are genuinely nice!
for now i hav got 4 full classes. the fate of my stay is still uncertain but im numbed to it already. whatever i can do, i will just do it. i'm creative to the point of being over-experimental! it's not too good because it makes me behind the SOW (scheme of work)! and i have yet to actualise the energy i thought i would have. the point is i have to balance my enthusiasm and temper my passions. sometimes i get carried away or at times i might get too impatient to "prove myself".
the weekend sobered me a little - i need to take things easy!
so now that the first impressions have been made, i need to follow through my "style" consistently. i have the privilege to go "solo" so i shld nt squander precious time by not channeling my classes into learning something. yes, i want to make them learn something and pave the way ahead for them a little, even if it's short lived.
had a good Fri chill out session at ACC before being consumed by tuitions for the weekend. hardly rested at all.
and today meet up session was actually surprisingly good and somehow refreshing. i always thought i knew better but i became humbled and reproached myself for being an 'insufferable know-it all". the sharing session was also rather engaging and i could relate so much to it! haha!
the only thing that pissed me off was that they kept rescheduling my appt! i got damn FED UP!
other than that, i went back and really rested. skipped RT. behind time for lesson planning! so tmrw i gotta pay the price.
happy youth day. read in educational psychology that the mind is not fully developed till 25. so until then, im still entitled to my own youthful, juvenile and accident-proned days.
till again.
(I Wish I Knew How it Would Feel to Be) Free
Sunday, 5 July 2009
I wish I knew
How it would
Feel to be free
I wish I could break
All the chains holding me
I wish I could say
All the things that
I should say
Say 'em loud
Say 'em clear
For the whole
Wide world to hear
I wish I could share
All the love that's
In my heart
Remove all the bars
That keep us apart
And I wish you could know
How it feels to be me
Then you'd see and agree
That every man
Should be free
I wish I could be like
A bird in the sky
How sweet it would be
If I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and
Look down at the sea
And I'd sing
'Cause I'd know
How it feels to be free
I wish I knew
How it would
Feel to be free
I wish I could break
All the chains holding me
And I wish I could say
All the things that
I wanna say
Say 'em loud
Say 'em clear
For the whole
Wide world to hear
Say 'em loud
Say 'em clear
For the whole
Wide world to hear
Say 'em loud
Say 'em clear
For the whole
Wide world to hear
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do
What you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
Woah, woah, woah, woah
I wish I knew
How it would
Feel to be free
I wish I knew
How it would
Feel to be free
Half- Nelson
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
this was featured in OKTO channel a while ago and again another great film depicting the role of relationship in teaching - friendships, addictions and CHANGE.
more on this later.
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